Suffering for the Gospel. When most of hear this, we think
of the persecuted church in countries that are closed to the Gospel. We think
of torture, imprisonment, and constant threats on your life. Not being able to
freely speak of the goodness of Christ without fear of reprimand. However, all suffering
may not be quite as severe as all this.
Recently, I was sick for about three weeks. I felt so bad
that I wasn’t able to do much other than lay in my house. Over the past three
years of my time living in Africa, this was definitely the worst I’ve felt and
the longest period of time that I’ve been sick. I felt worthless, and even
began to even question my purpose of being in Tonj, since I couldn’t accomplish
anything or be out with the people.
During this time, I began to reflect on some
conversations that I’ve had in the past with some teammates regarding
suffering. One instance was a recent conversation Tianna and I had regarding
her struggle with acne since coming to South Sudan. As silly as it sounds, the
battle with acne in South Sudan is a form of suffering. I was also reminded of
a conversation I had with a past teammate during a time in Ethiopia when many
of us were constantly battling sickness; sleepless nights due to countless runs
to the bathroom because of something you ate or drank is a form of suffering.
Even though these examples are not quite as “exciting” as stories from Paul or
an undercover missionary biography, it’s still part of the cost of being a
disciple of Jesus.
As my view began to morph from feeling worthless, I tried to
focus on being thankful to have been given the opportunity to suffer for the
Gospel, no matter how insignificant it may seem. Although I may live in a place
where I’m not persecuted for my faith by being tortured, imprisoned or
receiving constant threats on my life, there is a cost of leaving my family,
having a variety of tropical illnesses and not as many comforts as I would have
in America. As a believer, when you say yes to Jesus, that means at all costs,
no matter where, what or the what the outcome is.
As holidays are upon us, I know that this is a particularly
difficult time for me as well as other people who are away from home, and for
the families that are left behind. As we are missing our loved ones this
holiday season, may we all focus on the cost of discipleship, joyfully
proclaiming that Jesus is worth it!
“Count it all joy, my
brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing
of your faith produces steadfastness. And let your steadfastness have its full
effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James 1:2-4